ayeesyah

2010-03-01T05:10:00.000-08:00

TUMBLR UPDATED!

WWW.TRUCKSANDTEES.TUMBLR.COM

2010-02-23T06:46:00.001-08:00

I posted a video at my tumblr blog. Its We Are The World song that you see on Channel 5. I couldnt stop watching it. Do watch!

www.trucksandtees.tumblr.com

2010-02-22T05:06:00.000-08:00

I'M LOVING TUMBLR TO THE CORE!!

Anyways,been thinking of names for the url. I'll list down a few just to get ur opinion.

heelsandkicks
pillowsandpolaroids
withsenses
trucksandtees

I persoanlly like the last one alot. I just like how it sounds. Okay nonsense. I dont know why I bother asking for suggestions when I know there wont be any reply for it. :)

2010-02-20T08:04:00.000-08:00

I'm pleased to announce that I'm moving to tumblr once everything is settled got everything figure out so that when you view it,it'll be interesting. No more wordy posts. Everthing short and sweet. Will be posting pictures too just for fun. Hee.

And I realise I'm scared of the Mona Lisa potrait. HAHA! She has no eyebrows. Human figures with no eyebrows scare me. At least a drawn one will do. But she doesnt even have a single hair. Yikes!

Oh and I think I need to lay off the chilli and oranges. I keep going to the toilet for "heavy duty". LOL It hurts!

Okay so I've finally picked a skin for tumblr. Though not really feeling this one much. I'll post more pictures to make it less grey-ish.

For a sneak preview,visit http://www.herlips.tumblr.com

The url is just random. Still thinking about it.

2010-02-18T21:17:00.000-08:00

A little girl was walking along a beach in California when she same across a man with no clothes on and just a newspaper covering his genitals. The little girl said: What do you have under that newpaper,Mister?

The man said: Nothing,its just a bird,now go away! The man thought nothing of her and quickly fell asleep. Hours later,the man woke up in a hospital bed in excrutiating pain.

"Where the hell am I?" A doctor replied:"Somone called 911 and said you needed emergency help,so we rushed you right over.

"Well,what happened to me?"
"We dont know son. Do you remember anything unusual happening to you today?

The man said: "Well,there was a little girl bugging me just before I fell asleep." The doctor sent someone to the beach to see if the little girl was still there and she was.

The person said:" Do you know what happened to that nice man you saw here earlier?

"Well,",the girl said,"I started to play with that nice little bird that he had and the damn thing spit on me. So,I wrung its neck,broke its eggs and set its nest on fire!"

OUCH!!

2010-02-18T05:19:00.000-08:00

Basically,I have NOTHING to blog about.

Except that today I waiting for the lift and a dog just turn out of the corner. It got nearer and nearer and after that I just took off for the stairs. It was a cute dog,but what if it pounces on me and start scratching me?! Heh.

Anyways,in the mood for Seoul Garden! So gonna eat there with kim and acha soon. SORRY ZEEK! NEXT TIME K!

And my long weekend was a wreck. I didnt want to suffer of boredom so I ran away to Johore to stay with granny. Not much fun either but I got to take cute pics with my cousin!

Oh and I've started eating oranges. I've never eaten an orange before. So this morning I ate a whole orange. But now I cant stop going to the toilet. So far been to the toilet 4 times in 1 hour. WTHELL!

ps: I NEED TO WATCH FOOTBALL! I've already missed like two matches! One was vs Aston Villa which I totally forgot and the other one was vs AC Milan(feat Beckham!) which I couldnt watch because only available on mioTV. UGH!

2010-02-11T21:42:00.000-08:00

CNY is here and there's pretty much no diff to my schedule. Just that I'll be home everyday and not going for volunteer.

Anyways,yesterday after reaching home from meeting Angie, quickly watched MJ:This Is It. IT WAS AWESOME! The sad songs brought me to tears. It was clear how much he wanted to do the concert to spread the love and save the earth.

And I couldnt stop looking at his legs! Its like a dancing machine. His dance moves are so slick and smooth! But mom said he looked like he's very tired. And he's like most of the time looking breatheless and not as active onstage as before. He's always running on stage,but for this concert,he's walking more instead.

Other than that,AWESOME-NESS! I think I'm gonna go get the original. Yesterday I watched it TWICE. Heh. And you cant help but sing along during the movie!

Maybe someone should start playing MJ songs to heal the world. The current situation in the world is like Every Man for Himself. Everything that you do,is only for your own good. Hence it brought destruction to the world. No one ever thought about the world. Whats good for EVERYONE. If they think that what they're doing is good for the world,then maybe they shouldnt think at all.

Till here.

2010-02-09T03:58:00.000-08:00

My head has been booming with pain for the past few days. I dont know why. And I always feel nauseous when I take the bus. Whats wrong with it? Ughh..

Anyways,gonna go shopping with Angie(she's paying for me!) on Thurs. Hoping to get the slippers. So far I've seen two people wear it. I WANT! Ohh and I bought new pumps. But mom doesnt know. SHHH..

Initially wanted to start wearing heels. But I'm not confident enough. I have no problem walking in heels all day but I guess I'm just not used to it. Oh well..

2010-02-08T07:00:00.000-08:00

I dont know where the hell my watch is. Its not at home. So I'm guessing its in the car. It better be. Its my fave watch!

Okay just random post.

2010-02-07T06:37:00.000-08:00

Look at his dreamy eyes!!

Anyways,today spent the day at Navin's with the clan. All of us were late so we only manage to watch one movie. After that we weren't interested anymore. Heh.

Anyways,recently New Paper's front cover headline was a shocker to the Malay community. I really believe people should learn to handle their own privacy. No matter what they do!

Whoever that uploaded the video will not rest in peace. Its not cool to sabotage other people. Do whatever you want to do behind closed doors. Once its open,you're in a different world. For god sake,stop taping your own actions.

You know it as well as I do that somehow its gonna leak one way or another. So why bother taping it? Or even take bare photos of yourself in public?! You dont feel the shame when you're doing it. Have you thought of the aftermath? I guess not.

Oh well,its time to be educated!

2010-02-03T07:12:00.000-08:00

Today I counted the number of pictures I have in my comp. Altogether 2100. So little! I WANT MORE! I WANT MORE!

Okay I'm always hyper at night. Anyways,lets talk about my volunteer work!

I realise that my students(10 year olds)only benefit from the teaching in class. How I know? Their counting is still at 1-20. They refuse to listen to instructions. I mean the extreme cases.

The teacher told me that students like them are often neglected. There was one student where both his parents are working but there's a maid. All the maid does when the student comes home is put him in front of the tv and make him watch it until he fall asleep. Morning wake up and go school.

So in short,the person responsible for the child just chuck them one side when they come home. And on wkends,they just leave the child there. Pretty much their routine is go school,go home,next morning go school again. And the cycle spins the same way for the rest of the year.

Hence these students have never been to a park,library,airport and etc. They only see it when the teacher wants them to identify something. So most of the time they cant answer cos they dont know.

As for the really disabled(extreme spastic cases),once they're 18 years old,they graduate and stay at home for the rest of their lives. No more education.

I may not know what its like to be having a child who is spastic. But they are humans too and may not be as intelligent or able to take care of you when you're old like others' children, the least you could give them is your love. You brought him/her into this world therefore its ur job to fulfill your responsibility.

God/Life wont give you an obstacle where you cant handle the situation. Nonetheless,I still try to have a fun time with them in school so that they would be encouraged to come to school everyday and finally learn something.

And with that,in two weeks time we're gonna have an excursion to Changi Airport. They've never been there. So..yeah.

2010-02-02T04:50:00.000-08:00

Went back to LYSS for drama. I'm glad I saw navin and akbar!! Its been ages. Especially navin! He's uncontactable. Anws,I think akbar forgot that he was suppose to meet me when I reached school. So I met up with navin instead.

I got a chance to talk to some teachers and I got good feedback on my course of choice. Pretty much everyone is supportive of me EXCEPT Din. No point explaining to him. Its done. Right Din? You should be supportive of me. I know I dont deserve to be where I am now,but its the best for now. Call me and give me support now!!

Anyways,hopefully there'll be an outing for 5a2 this Fri. Do I always have to do the planning? Haiss..

Till here. Seriously thinking of moving to tumblr.

2010-01-31T06:08:00.000-08:00

I miss the centre. Hopefully there'll be no last minute errands for me to run so that I can go volunteer. Oh and I have to start paying for adult fare for ez-link. It sucks when you're poor.

My left eye is still twitching. Whats gonna happen??!! I'm not superstitious,but it just kinda bothers me. And with me knowing what the twitching means,it just comes to thought everytime it twitches. Although its not as severe as when I was about to get my results(twitches everytime I blink),it just still bothers me you know.

And tonight,I have to watch Arsenal vs Man U all by myself. Bro never watches football with me anymore so I'm not bothered. Dad does sometimes when there's a big game but tonight he's working which leaves mom. But she too cant be bothered when my bro or dad is not home. This sucks.

Its not fun to shout GOOOAAAAALLLLLL(which will be shouted a few times when Man U scores and wins the game) and realise you're the only one there.

2010-01-28T03:32:00.000-08:00

She's making everything so frustrating for me. Maybe it is fated that I shoud not talk about education with her. She just doesnt understand how much my love for theatre is. I know its costly thats why I'm not going to pursue it for now. Everything that I choose doesnt seem to fit her wants and needs. What else must I do to satisfy her? I've tried my best but her negative words shoot me down like a thousand bullets.

Its okay Aisyah. Dont give up. You want to do everything that you can to heal the world emotionally. You just got to take it step by step. She's just one of the many obctacles that you're gonna face out there. Just suck it up and move on. Education is the most frustrating thing yet,but its what thats gonna keep you alive in the world. After all the blood,sweat & tears,you can enjoy life and heal the world any way you want. For now,just take each happy moment you have seriously and enjoy it while it lasts. Once you're in battlefield,no more turning back. YOU CAN DO IT!

I've thought about NAFA and tried to talk to her. WRONG MOVE. Dont even talk about the cost and she'll go berserk even about the mention of THEATRE. I guess no one understands what I want in life. Therefore,they're not gonna make it happen for me. Screw them.

So here's the groundbreaking news...AISYAH BTE YUNOS IS POSTED TO ITE SIMEI,INTEGRATED LOGISTICS MANAGEMENT(higher nitec). I'll see you there!

2010-01-26T19:37:00.000-08:00

The video below is the trailer for the movie Dear John which is going to be released on Feb 5. I kept replaying the video for about 20 mins I think. You'll never get sick of it. And for the first time ever,the movie is a love story from a guy's perspective. And guess what? Just by watching the trailer,I teared.

And there's like 6-7 movies I want to watch:
The blind side(about homeless person)
Sherlock Holmes
Tooth Fairy(DWAYNE JOHNSON)
Up in the air
Its complicated
Dear John (must watch!!)
Angels & Demons

2010-01-25T02:54:00.000-08:00

Desire of the day. I need Gladiator Heels.

2010-01-24T05:13:00.000-08:00

Weekends are spent rather well.

Saturday
Went to help with the moving of furniture since my cousins have got a new home. It looks cosy,which means not much cleaning to do unlike my house! I stayed for a bit after my family left cos I'm so bored and alone at home. After which went to flea market at expo for some shopping. YAY! I bought a pink(!!) purse and one top.

Sunday
Went cycling with sis @ East Coast. My bum kinda hurts cos the seat was pad-less. I want to try wakeboarding again soon! I want to do the flips in the air,which have not been able to do cos its hard!! Then to expo for flea market agn to buy some accessories. TIRED.

I think I need to start waking up early. No matter how late or early I sleep the night before,I'll wake up at 11-12pm without fail the next day. Unless some karung guni tries to get everybody's attention with his stupid horns.

Maybe they should put a curfew for that. Like horns allowed only between 12pm-2pm. Okay nonsense. Anyways,I've been getting strong headaches everytime I wake up and it can lasts for a few days. Okay pretty much,IT NEVER STOPS.

Oh! Going to start jogging again. However,at 4.30am. Heh. Call me crazy whatever. There's no curfew for jogging. So I dont care ;)

I'm thinking of moving to tumblr. What do you guys think?

2010-01-22T07:20:00.000-08:00

Can I please have my life back?

Now everything just seems to be slipping off the track. Its true sometimes you just dont get what you want,but why does it have to be at a crucial time in your life? You just cant help but ask:what else is there to it? What else that is in store for us that we are not ready for? These are qns where you ask but never get an answer. Never. Ever.

I'm not sure whether its a test from Allah,but if its only me who is causing it,then I'll have to say: I'm sick and tired of all this crap. I'm sick and tired of trying. I'm sick and tired of mugging over. I'm sick and tired of feeling depress. I'm sick and tired of THINKING!!

You just have to suck up every difficulty you face for a lifetime! Feel free to rant about your life on my tagboard.

2010-01-21T07:26:00.000-08:00

I got a call from RP earlier in the afternoon for an interview tmr. First reaction was to panic as usual cos I wasnt prepared at all. So I bought all the materials needed but I've finally decided not to go for the interview because after reading the details,I figured I dont want the course.

Yeah stupid me go and apply for it in the first place for what right? Libra people are indecisive. So yeah. So now I only have SP and I'm gonna appeal for Applied Drama & Psychology tmr! Hopefully will get. Keep your fingers crossed people!

And like I said earlier,if all else fails,I still have Higher Nitec. Kinda half-hearted in the first place,to be honest. But education has to go on and definitely only keep POSITIVE THOUGHTS. However,I just cant seem to shake off this awkward feeling. Its like something is not at ease or..I dont know how to describe it. Whatever it is,POSITIVE THOUGHTS AISYAH! THERE'S ALWAYS A GOOD THING THATS GONNA COME OUT OF WHAT YOU'RE GONNA GO THROUGH.

2010-01-20T06:52:00.000-08:00

I had actually planned to post an entry on my JPSAE application because it felt like I'll be shortlisted for NP's interview,BUT I DIDNT.

I wasnt shocked,but just a lil down. I mean what does it take to be shortlisted for an interview? So NP is not gonna call me. So Din did predict accurately that I wont get a place. So,will RP or SP call me? HOPEFULLY!If not,I'll just appeal. And if all else fails,there's still hope of an education in Higher Nitec.

And today I didnt go volunteer cos I thought I can go out with Acha to celebrate her birthday. BUT NO! So I stayed at home and did all my house chores. Yes I'm a goody two shoes. So when it was time to meet Zeek(!!),mom let me out even though it was 8pm. Heh.

I make it sound like she's imprisoning me. Heh. You know although its only been a day and I just started volunteering like last Friday,I kinda miss the centre. Oh well,I'm going tmr.

Till here.

2010-01-16T21:22:00.000-08:00

I've planned my week ahead and I realised that I've no money. OMG. Gonna go Pizza Hut with some random people,need to buy new pump shoes and also some other girl stuff. And I need money!

2010-01-15T07:44:00.000-08:00

Why do I keep believing others when they say: Dont worry,she just needs some time. Or no worries,I'm sure she'll talk to you again. Why did the fucking hell I believe them when I know that she wont talk to me. I mean come on,just get over it already! What? You're not going to talk to me forever? You just made my life a miserable hell. Thats all you do. I expected you to sit down with me and give a good talk,BUT YOU DIDNT. You just went on with your crappy attitude. I didnt ask for you to be a role model mom,I just wanted you to be a mom. The caring type. But you weren't. When my brother said you just wanted the best for all 3 of us,I knwo you lied. It was just 2. Not including me. I dont know where else to turn to. Siblings? All they say is: she's like that with us too. You'll get over it. Yeah I dont see you having bad results and not getting a good scolding. You'll get it for a few minutes and then she moves on. Why not me? Why was I always the unlucky one. Why does every other mother in the world says that its okay,you have other options and I'll always be right behind you to catch you when you fall. Do you really hate me that much or you just never loved me at all? I dont even bother talking to you because whatever that I say will be a waste of my breath! But if this is the way you want to handle me,FINE! I'll show you that I'll be a successful person,even without your help. If you say that you wanted me to be independent thats why you dont interfere with my future,I'LL SAY BULL CRAP. Sometimes I just dont know whether its a test from ALLAH or just my wrongdoing.

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Anyways,today was an awesome day for me! Went to Celebral Palsy Centre with Niki and her mom to do volunteer work. The special classes were abit shocking for me cos I dont really know how to handle them. Their movements are abit restricted so I was a lil uncomfortable I might say. Whereas the art class with the children were awesome.

They remembered my name! So much better than my boss who doesnt remember my name most of the time. And there's a smart boy in the class too! His english accent is better than mine. And he's only 10 years old. Cool or what.

After which went to grab dinner since she didnt cook at home. Which left me starving for the day. Then off to work. I was given a "warning" from boss that if I dont get an appt by next week,she will fire me. So I told her that today is my last day cos I dont want to waste anymore of her money knowing that I wont get an appt. So today was officially my last day. And I met Puhan on the way back home,in the train!

This is the face of a girl who feels so bored at work. Only the callers make it fun. I was all alone in the office,so what to do? CAMWHORE! I know its a hideous photo. Do you really think I care. Its for entertainment. HAH! Laugh people,laugh! Hahaha. crazy.

2010-01-12T00:39:00.000-08:00

I'm sure by this time most of you would have known my results for O levels. Yeah fuck that. Anyways I'm done with my sorrows and its down to the real deal. To those who are bragging about it,get over it. Failures..been there done that a gazillion times for the past 5 years in hell school. This shouldnt be any different. There's a million paths to choose from and sometimes you just gotta try your luck. You wont get anywhere without taking any risks.

Anyways,I've spoken to a few people about routes that can be taken. Bro and Sis offered higher nitec(in other words,follow their footsteps) but there's not many courses I would actually want to do. So here I am trying my luck for poly. Oh well.

Till here. Need to go to work!

2010-01-08T09:21:00.000-08:00

Skin is halfway done. Just need to put my picture and change the font colour,then VOILA!

2010-01-05T06:18:00.000-08:00

Hello! Nothing much has been happening lately. Work has been fine. Although I got told-off just recently. The caller said I was rude. Oh please! I'm never rude to someone I dont even know. Callers like this make you feel sick of this job. But hey,I believe one out of 100 people out there are rude and too straightforward so you just gotta shake it off and move on.

So far this job has taught me to handle with surprises and think on your feet. Yeah you stick to the script but not each and every person that you call says the same thing.

Anyways,I'm excited! This week will be getting a new bag and prolly get to play tennis with Razi when I'm free.

Till here.

2010-01-02T05:51:00.000-08:00

Today I went to Marina Barrage for a picnic and it spells FUN FUN FUN! Actually we didnt do much except sit there and play card games. Bought chips also no use. Eat a bit only. Heh. And I think we're the only ones there sitting on a disposable table mat. HAHA! We couldnt find a picnic mat,so must improvise la!

After which,went for dinner at LJ. Wanted to meet Hirouka clan but they were and Tamp1 and I had to go home soon,so just ate at LJ lor. I would love to post pictures here,but its all uploaded in FB,so go there and see okay? WEE!

Till here.

2009-12-31T06:00:00.000-08:00

Well since today is the last day of 2009,I'd decided to enter a post and send in well wishes too.

Everyone seems to be sending those end of year messages so I guess I could join in the fun. But I would only do it through here since I have a limited number of smses. Pathetic yes. No worries,I'll prolly get a new line or something once my full pay comes in and when mom allows me to pay my own bills.

SO! I would like the thank all of you who have been part of my life this 2009. I would like to list them all down but then it'll take me hours to get everyone's name in. Anyways,a BIG THANK YOU for shaping me into the more-matured and open and crazy and spontaneous person I am today. Especially J,A,H,N,Z,C. I owe my life to you guys. All the blood sweat and tears have made our relationship stronger. More adventure and tear-laughing jokes to come! And also Hirouka clan for being the reason for my happy times and definitely the uncountable hours of uploading pictures onto FB. We may have ran into mishaps and such but that was just a test of how strong our love for each other was. And we all managed to survive. Kudos to that. More outings and gatherings to come! And to the rest of my friends and relatives,thank you for being a part of my life one way or another. I'll never forget how you all manage to put a smile on my face.

I dont really care that 2010 is coming cos it just so happens that we're all back to January according to our calendar. Nothing much of a change. We still live our lives day by day. But it happens once a year,so what the heck just saying well wishes right? Oh and mom is fighting with sis outside over grandpa. And I'm crying. I'm not sure about what. Just cant get my head around mom;s attitude. She really likes to misinterpret things and am so stubborn and thinks so negatively of everything.

Well,a few months back I did say that I want to be nothing like mom right? Its still gonna be my word. To myself. I love her,I really do. Just her attitude. Thats all.

Till here. Oh! And to all the ghosts that I've met on my ghost-hunting trip,may 2010 bring you all more disturbing moments so that you'll come out and show yourselves. Hah. Random!

2009-12-28T00:00:00.000-08:00

I'm back in Singapore!! KL was err..okay I guess. All I bought was an Estee Lauder perfume, a few pieces of cloth to make clothes and a watch. Went to Petaling Street to get a bag but most of it was fake LV.Chanel,Guess and Mont Blanc.

I really want an LV bag but I rather be proud of having an authentic one. Anyways,most of the money was spend on food and drinks. Even the shopping centres was a bore. But Subway was HALAL! But I couldnt eat it cos of diarrhoea which I'm still experiencing now. SWAY.

And the relative's wedding was omg. I dont know anyone there so I just stick by my sister. The groom was an hour late. KL traffic,so expected. The journey back to the hotel was a good 2 hours. Same reason,KL traffic.

And to make matters worse,flight back to SG was delayed. And now I'm still tired after 10 hours of sleep.

Till here.

2009-12-24T02:01:00.000-08:00

I've finally found a job! Although it doesnt pay much($300 to be exact),at least its something rather than nothing. But its after office hours. 7pm-9.30pm! So I still need to look for a day job to go along with and possibly more clothes. Currently only about 5 pieces. Yeah my wadrobe is pathetic.

And I'm still waiting for Hakim to get me a bag! Always delay one sia!

Anyways after the interview went to town to look for jobs. Instead we walked aimlessly going here and there. We're typical Singaporeans who dont usually have doors open for us when entering a shop. So we went to LV and Chanel and they open the door for us! LOL Just got a job and already want to spend a bomb on a bag. Which I dont mind cos bags are everything to me!!!!

If I'm rich,I want a closet just for bags. Bimbo sia. Then we had to go home cos my leg was aching. Heh. And I need rest cos I'm going KL tmr! Its actually for a wedding but I'm only following mom for the shopping part. WEE!!

Well actually the main reason was Angie drag me here and there. Crazy! I had a great time today. Do wish me luck for my first day at work on Monday.

Till here.

2009-12-22T07:21:00.000-08:00

My sister is a murderer! She killed Beau! She should be sent to jail!

Beau is my Sim. While syncing new apps into her iTouch(which she should thank me for),the process deleted My Sims 3 too. I forgot how to sync,so she did it for me. So Beau is now dead and wont be reincarnated. And she lost 9US$. I wanted to pay for her to buy the My Sims 3 app again,but she dont want. WTF!

Beau is an innocent sim. Why must the hot dude(who has yet to have sex) die so young?! LOL okay I'm over-reacting. But I swear when it states that its deleting My Sims 3,we shouted like *.

Tll here. Oh! Sis got iTouch 1st generation a few years back and bro got the 3rd generation a few days ago. I want one too! Be it iPhone or iTouch. I WANT IT!

2009-12-21T23:54:00.000-08:00

Just the other day aunt came to my hse to visit granny. My left eye has been twitching for about 2 weeks.

Me: My left eye has been twitching for about 2 weeks. What does it mean ah?
Aunt: You're going to cry over something bad.
Me: Shit. O levels?

Few hours later it stopped twitching. And has never done it again ever since. Initially I refuse to believe any of it,but as I come round to my senses,currently its the only thing thats possible. So I started to panic.

Regret mostly. So last night I talked to mom and I said that if anything happens,I'm gonna retake my O levels. (YES,I'm that prepared.) Well,I know what I've been doing and what I have not. I mean there's always a solution right? As in going to Higher Nitec. But thats not even an option. Is either I just take the results and go to any poly with some useless course or I re-sit for my O's.

I may enter poly later than all my friends,but whats there to hurry? I'm not catching up to anything. Worst comes to worst I save up all my money,work my ass off and study theatre in Australia. That part needs a little bit of convincing though. I dont have to take the path that most people take. I dont have to follow the crowd. Its my future and I'm going to take control of it. I know exactly what I want and I'm gonna go for it.

So dear O level results,I know I'm gonna shed a million tears over you,but you're not going to stop me from achieving what I want.

Till here.

2009-12-18T22:50:00.000-08:00

I currently have no life.

2009-12-14T03:48:00.000-08:00

Bought this lovely piglet at Toys R Us. Planning to give sis for her birthday tmr. But I cant bear to part with it. Besides,she wont be cuddling it to sleep. So lets just let it stay in my arms instead. Darling bought one too! Hee..

Anyways,we went to catch Case 39. Didnt regret. Although at one point I felt like leaving the cinema. Ha! Suspenseful and definitely full of shock. Zeek should watch this. I bet you he will shit his pants. HA!

Then we went round and round. Orchard Central was err...okay...Not much people. Unlike 313@Somerset. OC was boring honestly. There was only one shop that we were really browsing through the stuff. Interesting la.

313@Somerset was packed. We decided not to enter Forever 21 although it was 3 storeys cos we obviously didnt have money. HEH. Got money then talk. Then we went our separate ways.

oh! I've actually decided to sleepover at cousin's hse for a few days. You can actually go crazy sleeping in the same hse for over a month without much outdoor activities. I'll be gone tmr! byee

Till here.

2009-12-13T07:04:00.000-08:00

I've got nothing much to say for this post. I'm finally going out with someone tomorrow. Usually I'm out by myself just to run errands and visit the library. NAVIN! HAKIM! ZEEK! When to go out?! I want go Far East to buy a bag!

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How I wish you would just come clean with me. I dont understand what you're trying to say. I happen to be able to make decisions and realise that you still have her. So run along. Dont come to me unless she's gone for good. Yeah I know that you're disappointed. But have you thought about me? I'm much more disappointed that you're with her. I'm not asking you to leave her unreasonably. Just wished you had used your senses.

2009-12-09T21:03:00.000-08:00

Is Taylor Lautner hot? Not to me. Although I dont watch New Moon or Twilight,I prefer the non-human characters. Which means the werewolves. I dont know what's so attrative about those flesh-eating beasts,but I've always adored werewolves. Sure they're fierce-looking. Heh. Yeah I'm weird. Shut up.

2009-12-07T08:45:00.000-08:00

Suffering of insomnia for a couple of days already. I cant sleep until its about 3am. This is the hours where I want to go jogging but I cant cos its unsafe for me. (Yeah like 5am is safe enough)! I pretty much just toss and turn in bed. And I cant even sleep in the day too!

There's practically no one to talk to at 1 to 3 in the morning except for Aizat,but he's working so I cant possibly disturb his rest. I can go online but 90% of them would already be asleep and there's nothing interesting on youtube and then there's TV where the shows are just so old or you're just not interested in watching.

I want to go jogging now! But I cant. Ugh.. I mean obviously not by myself. Simei is a peaceful and quiet estate where danger still lurks. And now I have this terrible pain on my neck and headache and there's no one to massage it for me and the house has run out of panadols. Life sucks in the wee hours of the morning. How I wish its 5am now so I can go for my run.

And probably having a bf at this time of misery would be great! I'm currently on a phase where I change how I look. My face is gonna be better. I'm gonna lose weight drastically cos I dont want to have fats for too long and then have sagging skin. Hahaha. And maybe be more strong emotional and mental wise. And definitely watch out for the temper.

I want to be a new AYEESYAH. No more boring old ugly fat girl. Aizat! Where are you when I need you man!!

Till here. Friends is on tv! At 1am. Which I've been watching again and again.

2009-12-06T06:49:00.000-08:00

I cant feel my legs anymore. I just started running again around Simei with brother. Tiring and sleepy. Everyday wake up at 5am! Haha. Well bro went back to camp so now I have to jog all by myself. Peaceful cos there's only one or two people walking but a lil' scary cos its 5 in the morning all alone. :(

Searching for job again soon!

Till here.

2009-12-03T07:22:00.000-08:00

dont say anything about our faces!

Beauty and the Beast a little bit of a disappointment. Although the Beast is a handsome dude. HAHA! I mean when he turns into human not beast-human. Anyways,the laughter was continuous which is good but the singing...cant really hear what they singing. Like they singing in some language or cannot-make-it accent.

Desmond(drama instructor) was supposedly one of the casts. He's the vacuum cleaner. HAHAHAHA! Suits him cos he's champion in Philippine accent. Haha! But he was hospitalised. I texted him and he replied me like he's pissed or upset. But anyways,I pray you get well soon! I've never watch you perform. Hmm..

Anyways like I said earlier,a bit of a disappointment. Not as good and CLEAR as Beauty World and Snow White. But Chua Enlai was awesome! WOOHOO! Yeah he's one of my favourite actors.

Dancing was creative. Effects were common,which is okay. Pretty much everything was fine just the singing. And they were using mics!!! Tis is theatre,you dont use mics. Projection only. Why do you think voice projection exercise is a MUST?!! That was a disappointment too.

Again,these productions make me fall for theatre even deeper. I've not been performing or doing improvs for some time now. I just want to be in the scene. It doesnt matter if I'm not as famous as Chua Enlai or Dwayne Tan or Farhan Hassan,I just want to be a theatre professional and act. Thats all. BUT! I dont know how to get involved. There's like no application form.

Theatre is not as simple as filling a job application. You need to be in the school or internship to be involved. Or worst,get a degree/honours to be recognised. That doesnt even guarantee you will be in the big productions.

So..till here! Btw,I read the wrong thing. RW's album is already out. Just that the new single is released on 7 Dec. HAHAHAHA!

ROBBIE WILLIAMS SANG ME TO SLEEP. WEEE!

2009-12-02T06:07:00.000-08:00

ROBBIE WILLIAMS IS BACK!!!
GET ME HIS NEW ALBUM HITTING STORES ON 7 DEC!
I WANT IT!!!
NOW!!!

Till here.
You know what I feel like saying? "Pegi mampos la ngn kau."

2009-12-01T08:57:00.000-08:00

How should I say this?
Same feeling all over again.
Should I tell anyone about this?
This time I mean business.
Its interesting how someone doesnt say anything or look at me and I fall for them.
Just like that!
Maybe this time I should just keep mum about it.
Just not let the world know about these feelings.
I mean I obviously get nothing in return.
Maybe just "oh okay" or "does anyone else know?"
My mind is going crazy.
I just need to get it out of my system.
Channel my focus on something else.
Just one qn still lurks..Why you?

2009-11-30T07:38:00.000-08:00

Went to celebrate Ally's and Razi's advance birthday. Just a mini one actually. Then headed to Secret Recipe for dinner. Wrong move!! This is the second time I'm eating at Secret Recipe and never has it made a good impression.

Then it was picture time! And home sweet home! Reached at 10.30pm. So scary pls. I keep feeling someone is walking behind me but no one. Heh.

Oh well. till here. ~Feelings only msgs can express. I'm back in the game!~

2009-11-29T07:12:00.000-08:00

I want to go to Milan,Portugal,Spain,Paris,Wyoming,Winchester,Manchester and so many more to say.

Anyways,today went to a wedding but I dont know how the hell I'm related to anyone there except my cousins. There was no one to follow the newlyweds to the male's side so we had to squeeze in the car and follow them only to find that we didnt have any seats and most of the food have ran out and it took such a long time for the people the refill them. They hired people to do that but the job wasnt fulfilled at all. DUMB!

After that headed to cousin's hse cos I know I'm bored. Reached,watch tv,talk and slept! His bed so comfy. Hah. Then it was "family time" and alot of stories exchanged. SHHHH..

Till here. I look pretty in my baju kurung today. Yippee!

2009-11-24T06:52:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow I will start to die a slow death. I will officially die on either Monday or Tuesday. Invitation cards to my funeral will be sent out soon. Do see me for the last time. Thank you.

Truth is my family will be out to Malacca. Dad will be working 24hrs so mom doesnt trust me in staying at home all by myself at night and decided to throw me into the Pit of Death in Johore where unknown cousins,stinging mosquitoes and scorching hot weather will be there awaiting my arrival. But there will also be a comfortable bed and aircon!

6 days of boredom,terror and sleepless nights. What to do..Camwhore and shop lor! Mommy! I want my money! Hahaha.

I'm so gonna pull my cousin to go shopping at Giant and buy magazines,magazines,magazines and more magazines!!! Use all his money! Yay!

Till here.

2009-11-21T00:00:00.000-08:00

I asked my sis to go vivo. She ended up landing me in some creepy place just to see Yishun Damp somewhere around Seletar Camp. She didnt know where it exactly was so she went round and round. Having the navigator was totally useless. We had to call someone and ask cos we were going in circles for about half an hr!

She was drining through this road where its all bushes around and there was not a single street light. The only light was the car's spotlight! Pretty much 70% of that place was creepy and dark. Not a single street light at all. But there's still houses and people living in them! Weird!!!

Me: Stop! *pulls handbrake*
Sis: Why?! *stops the car out of shock*
Sis fren: Why you ask her to stop?
M: You blind ah? You almost hit that boy!
S: What boy? There's no boy!
SF: Your eyes okay not. Which boy would be here in the dark at night?
M: You guys didnt see meh? the boy just dashed across.
S: Crazy *drives on*

So tell me. Was it just me or was there really a boy but only I can see it? It was actually rather unorthodox to say there was a boy in the dark,creepy and narrow road. I was totally out of mood after that. Headed home after looking at the "scenic" view of the damp.

2009-11-20T06:16:00.000-08:00

Today? You really want to know what I did today? I woke up at 8am. Rolled over and went to back sleep. Woke up at 10am. Rolled over and went back to sleep. Woke up at 1pm rolled over and I fell off the bed. HAHAHA!

Laugh all you want! I forgot it was only a single bed. I ate and watched tv the whole day. It was raining all day long but no mood to sleep. Duh! Slept for more than 10hours! Anyways,everyone seems to be having a job except me! Well maybe because I have not been looking for one for days already. Should start looking and hopefully I get one before november ends.

Till here. I'm imagining my Manchester United themed wedding where you are encouraged to wear a Man U jersey and the decorations would all be on Man U including the table numbers. And the invitation cards would also be like a ticket to see a match. Yay! Heh. Wicked huh.

2009-11-18T02:52:00.000-08:00

Because I just got to stay strong and quickly get a job!

Angie made me go to the gym with her. And now I have aches all over my leg. You know how much that hurts? Well,not much actually. HAHA.

Came home,bathed and guess what? I slept! Woohoo! Maybe I was so used to waking up at 11am and not 8am!

Till here. Oh! I bought coke today. Omg! So sweet can.

2009-11-17T04:39:00.000-08:00

You know what? I prefer the time of the day where I'm all alone at home and the phone doesnt ring at all! When dawn emerges,I start to lose my mind,peace and lone time. My mom would ask me to do this,that and whatever she can get me to do cos she's just too lazy to do it. Like get her water,change the channel,open the door,get me to call somebody. I totally understand that she's tired from work but dont you think its abit too much to ask for to do such basic stuff?

Even when she's at work,she can just piss me off. She would call and ask such irritating qns. Like when my dad was home,she called and asked me whether my dad was sleeping when she clearly knows he is. When I stuck myself in my room,she would ask me what my dad's doing. When I dont know,she ask me to check. Like as if I have nothing better to do other than sneak up on him and then give the report to my mom.

You know what? In fact,I dont want to be anything like my mom. I dont disrespect her or anything. (I just gotta let this out.)She's temperamental. When she doesnt like it,she slams the stuff around and call you with such direspect. She says that some of my aunts are real gossip-mongers. She says that they always say bad things or try to make the person look bad. When I told her off a few days ago saying that she's JUST LIKE THEM,she didnt even listen.

She just went on and on and on about my aunts. I just kept my mouth shut hoping she would too. I mean with me,my aunts are really nice. They dont hurt my feelings or talk to me in such a disrespectful manner. They get along well with me. And as for my mom,she doesnt even care to know about them. She doesnt even spend much time getting to know them. All she knows is just talk and talk and talk about them. I got sick and tired of this.

When I got to know how my cousins were leading their lives totally astray from religion,she forced me to tell her. When I refused,she didnt talk to me. Why didnt I tell her? Cos she's gonna spread the word around and blame this this this this! I didnt want my mom to have a bad image on my cousins. I honestly am sick of her attitude!

I mean what does she gain from this? I just wish I can get inside her head and see whats going on in there. She likes to judge situations without looking over it. And of course,it always has to be her way.

Mom,I'll be really really glad if you get to read what I just posted. A daughter should follow the footsteps of her mother right cos the mother is always a role model to the girls. Well,not for me. I'm not gonna be like you and I dont want to be like you.

Aisyah nak jadi seseorang insan yang mulia di mata orang dan juga di mata ALLAH.

2009-11-16T09:26:00.000-08:00

Time check: 1:26am

Currently I'm addicted to reading. Aisyah reads? Yes she does! You know what I feel like doing these few days? Just find some peace and quiet time. But I dont seem to get it! In the day,I'm all sleepy and jumpy. When night comes,I want that peace but everyone seems to be blasting the volume in the house. IRRITATING!

Anyways,I'm searching for a new skin. And as you know,its hard to impress me. So its hard to find a nice and decent skin.

Oh! I cried over a song today. HAHAHAHA. You know Blue? The Brit boyband? They were my favourite. They still are. I was listening to the song Guilty and I just cried. Like I started to get all sentimental. Gosh I'm so weird. But I never understood the video though. What does it have to do with being guilty?

Okay I'm gonna turn in. Whoever up for accompanying me read my book at a cafe,beep me! Random. haha.

Time check: 2:06am. (I'm not retarded or anything. Was surfing other sites,hence the time)

Something's wrong with my skin! Help!

2009-11-12T06:47:00.000-08:00

The bad thing when I shop is I dont talk. Cos I want to focus on what to buy. HAHA.

Today so tiring! Went out at abt 10am(!!) to watch Paranormal Activity. Hmm..Shall not elaborate any further until Zeek watches the movie. Haha. Want to keep him in suspense and hopefully he'll shit in his pants. LMAO.

Went from Tampines to Ion to Far East to Bugis to Simei. Hardcore. Just to find a measly kimono dress but ended up buying something else. And darling and me bought the same thing! Gonna wear it when we go to MB. :)

Long ride home made me sleep. Well,I took bus 12 from Bugis to Simei. No scenery. So I slept. Met the others at around 7:45pm. I think they waited for me to come then they order. So sweet. Sorry to keep you all waiting. Haha.

Then it was cake time! Thankfully I was the only one that didnt get the cake smashed in the face like the others. Yay! LOL. Oh! and I got presents! Woohoo! Amanda should be the one getting it not me. Haha. And she keep forgetting my present. I want to know what is it!

Then it was home sweet home. Felt really nice after bathing..

Till here.

2009-11-10T23:48:00.000-08:00

O's are one paper to an end. Can life get any better? I'm really looking forward to the holidays. Although I might be bored most of the time,but I really need it. Time for myself. I've not been really thinking much about me. So I guess this is the right time. And I get to do a waxing thing on someone's hair leg! Woohoo!!

Anyways,I've got a date with Angie this Thursday. I'm really hyped to watch Paranormal Activity. Well at first. Until I read the reviews and watched the trailer. Wanted to watch it at home,but I guess better not. I might just be afraid to stay in my own home. My imagination runs wild when I'm scared. Like:what if the house suddenly balcks out at night? What if something just brush past me? What if I see something in the mirror? Yeah you get the idea.

However,I'm going on a Thursday(malam Jumaat)! Malays should know what I mean. Although I dont really understand what happens on malam Jumaat. But dont fill in the details! Well not now.

And I've been watching Ghost Hunters lately. Like one episode after the other. So I always get the chills especially when it involves young girls. I mean I do ghost hunting but I just dont get the chills that much. Because sometimes I feel that the things that happened are explainable. Unless its the cupboard that slammed by itself. Which most of you have heard about it. Until I know its explainable,I dont get the chills that much.

Anyways,I wont know whether the movie is really spine-chilling until I watch it right? So Paranormal Activity,give me all you've got. (I have a feeling I shouldnt be saying that)

Somemore the next day I'll be alone at home. CRAZY! I'm not gonna survive. Better go out. Haha.

Till here. To that someone,sarcastic much.

2009-11-07T02:55:00.000-08:00

Currently on a job hunt. I dont know what to work as and how I'm gonna write my resume or where I want to work at and when I want to start. So I'm pretty much lost.

At the moment,I'm just thinking of somewhere to go with Angie. Somewhere I've never been before. A mall or a park or whatever. Preferably Ion Orchard. Never been there. And when to go fort canning with peeps. And when to eat turkish/mid east food with the dudes and where to get new sports shoe.

O's arent officially over but I've been starting to think about it. 3-4 months may sound a long holiday,but when you have activities to do,you just dont realise time is passing.

Last night went to Singapore Flyer. We didnt take the ride,we just walked around aimlessly. I wasnt awed at all. Well,I'm just uninterested on taking the flyer like some people do. The view is construction sites! Unless its the Universal at Sentosa opening next year! Yay! Now that I cant wait.

So..yeah. Thats all I have to say. Help me look for a job,somebody!!

2009-11-05T04:51:00.001-08:00

The wheel has turned. Time to move on.

No one knows how excited I am O's are coming to an end. I know I'm not doing that well. But at this stage where you have done almost all your papers,you really want it to be over,get your results and move on.

2009-11-04T22:50:00.000-08:00

More time please.

2009-11-02T22:20:00.000-08:00

Social Studies..........
What can I say. Never let your teacher make you eat her words 100% when she's not the one setting the paper. Just be extra prepared for exams and study it well. Why? Cos for the first time in my life doing a major exam,I dont know a single thing. Why? The ones that I've studied didnt come out. Why I study them? Because my teacher assured me that it would come out. So she being the teacher,I followed her instructions. And walah! It didnt. This goes to show that teachers are not fortune-tellers and you should never ever believe them when they dont set the exam paper.

I think I've said enough. I'm glad a lil of globalisation was stuck someone in my brain. If not,essay gone! And to Venice,when are you going to be questioned? I've studied you like crazy until not enough sleep,you want to paitao me? TSK PFFT! TSK PFFT! TSK PFFT!

On to the next. Stalin,you better come out. If not I die. Thanks!

2009-10-30T07:42:00.001-07:00

To the 2 fuckers that made my sister cry,GO FUCK YOURSELF! Take your dirty hands and stuff it deep up your assholes and let it stay there until your skin tears! Stop pointing fingers and venting your anger at her. She's just doing her job! You freaks are not her senior so back off bastards! Her senior doesnt even say anything and now you want to budge in? You have no authority to do that. She's studying and working at the same time. Cut her some slack. And she always gets her job done. How I know? Firstly,she's my RESPONSIBLE sister. DUH! And secondly,she stays wake till the wee hours just to finish up her assignments and all the work that you asses have pushed to her just because she takes care of small projects and clients. Well,at least she's not complaining,you cheapo bastards!

.................................

Apologies for the language. I'm a short-tempered person. My sis came home from picking up bro crying! Found out it was work. She told mommy and I heard. hehe. I'm not protective of my sister but when someone bullies her,I just need to step in. Found out,the problem dated back for weeks. I know who they are and me and bro wont hesitate to reprimand those two bastards. So..yeah..

2009-10-28T06:01:00.001-07:00

Okay I dont know whats up with the new skin. I just wanted a non-white background. And this seems neat. So what the heck!

2009-10-27T07:00:00.000-07:00

Barbie is a lesbian.
My brain needs a rest.
I want O's to be over by tmr.
Can you make that happen?
I can't stop feeling sleepy.
I hate it that I love maths.
I'm gonna go now.
Byee.

2009-10-24T05:27:00.000-07:00

English Compre exercise turned out to be easy! Well,at least until you know how to breakdown the questions and know what it is asking for. Heh.

I'm having a hard time looking for a nice skin...But none is of my liking! Its either too dark,too much to the left,too much to the right,too bright,too small or the font just sucks! I know can make the amendments but I lazy la. And dont want to trouble anyone during this crucial time where people have to keep their noses in books and stick their eyes to notes!

Oh and grandad just got warded. So byee!

2009-10-22T05:37:00.000-07:00

Pheww..Practical was a breeze. Well not literally. The lab was super duper warm! None of the test needs a bunsen burner so why decrease the fan level?! Unfortunately,one of the 5a1 students used the bunsen burner,when he's not supposed to,so the fan wasnt used at all!! Urgh!

Anyways,I thought I would screw up Phy but it was so easy! Yeah thats all. Heh.

Wanted to eat at Eighteen Chefs but full house so we headed to Banquet. Cheaper and filling! And now I dont know what to do. The weather so warm today!

Okay byee!

2009-10-21T08:27:00.000-07:00

Science prac tmr. I've covered everything on bio but I've got nothing for physics. So all the best to that. Heh. I think having no school is the worst thing that's ever happened to me now. I wake up late,study little and sleep late! Well,at least now I've got my own time. So ayeesyah,start waking up early again! Even if it has to be as early as 7am!

I've heard the disgusting thing that you did.
I'm not hurt or offended or anything.
So I took the initiative to..
delete all your msgs
delete photos that were taken with you only.
deleted your number.
and even deleted you from my mind.
You know how I feel now?
SO MUCH BETTER. SUCH A RELIEF.

Thats all for now. Oh trust me. You guys know who I'm talking about. :)

2009-10-19T04:59:00.001-07:00

Spend half the day at Nikita's house. It spells FUN FUN FUN! We had taboo-marathon. It was so addictive pls! Her dad later joined in. So it was even more crazy and loud than before. So thats all I can say. Too lazy to go into details.

Anyways,I got 6 movie vouchers from sis as s birthday present. I think she wanted to surprise me thats why its mailed to my name but I dont open the letterbox. So...yeah. Idk what to say la!

I guess thats all. I need to studyyyyy. And I mean it okay!

2009-10-18T02:28:00.000-07:00

I'm done. Continue being the person that you are now. You're right. Just like what you said about yourself.

Anyways,okay I dont know what to say. So thats all. Haha.

2009-10-17T22:29:00.000-07:00

Here I am again. Family off to johore for visiting. I've got nothing to do but talk to some maniac who knocked on my door and asked whether he can come in. HAHA!

Anyways,this tues is Graduation Day. Report at 8:30am all 5a2 lazybums! So,hopefully I wont be teary-eyed at all. I mean LYSS has seen me through it all. We had the good and bad moments. We found our true self. We found our true friends and even those who are just abit mental about teenage life. And also how much we want a good future.

As much as we say that we cant wait to leave the school,deep down I'm sure you are going to miss Lyss one way or another. However,O's are still waiting for its chance to make us know what our future is going to be like. The 2009 cohort will do ourselves proud!

Okay I dont know exactly why I'm typing this out. Haha. So I guess I'm gonna go now. Byee!

2009-10-15T00:00:00.000-07:00

I skipped school today. Totally last minute thing. I couldnt get myself out of bed. I've been in school from 7am to 6pm almost everyday. Some more not enough rest and sleep! Can die sia.

So today woke up at 1pm. Wanted to get enough sleep. But wrong decision. Now I have headache! Too much sleep. Heh.

Till here. Hopefully can focus more today. Those who wished me and even made a video to wish me(!!),THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR REMEMBERING MY BIRTHDAY! Hee.

2009-10-14T00:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AYEESYAH!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

What you all waiting for? Pick up your phones and call/text me! Wee~

2009-10-13T04:24:00.000-07:00

Days leading to O levels:
Scary
Terrifying
Panic
Worry
Confused
Nightmares
Nervous
Emotional breakdown
Sleepless nights
Mood swings
Hands trembling

Yes my hands do tremble every minute of the day just thinking about Os.

When I text you,I expect you to reply me!

2009-10-11T07:53:00.000-07:00

I'm tired of listening. So I poured my heart out. And it felt good. You were right. I feel really really relief. Cos sometimes,somethings are meant to let go.

Today went visiting. Err..I didnt spend the weekends well. Studied NOTHING actually. What a waste. Now I'm terrified of O's after talking about it to cousin. Her Arab subject is this wed,so good luck to her!

I had a good time at aunt's hse. Her room was air-conditioned so I conquered it first. Heh. I was planning to sleepover and skip school. But mommy dont allow. The school part made her say NO! But its okay. We plan to stay over at each other's house once O levels are done. Like exactly at the last paper!

Well. Thats all folks. I'm turning in soon.

I LOVE YOU.
Three simple words so hard to express.

2009-10-10T02:28:00.000-07:00

Oh so now you're a liar?

Stayed home the whole day. I cant believe that I'm actually tired of sleeping. Head's been booming since morning. Maybe I need to cut my hair. And prolly a head massage!!

Well,recently I just got no more life. Morning wake up go school. Study like mad. Lunch after sch. Stay back for revision and home around 4pm. But my schedule should be changing come next week since I have to attend tutorials.

History,science and maths. I'll just "test-drive" history first. See if it really helps me. Cos I dont get the jizz of whatever he's trying to teach.

And I've been getting stomachaches. Like more frequently than ever! Ouuuccchh!!

Thats all folks. I'm turned off so dont feel like blogging.

2009-10-09T08:27:00.000-07:00

Would I fall to pieces? You decide.

Today my phone got confiscated. My fault la actually. But I cant stop cursing that woman! Rushed home to go visiting. Two house only! And now here I am!

Okay I gtg. I need sleep. BYEE!

2009-10-08T05:11:00.000-07:00

Tired. Dont feel like studying. But I have to. Headaches coming again.

Till here.

2009-10-07T02:23:00.000-07:00

Let me repeat this to myself. I have no feelings for him! I dont! I dont! I dont! You're not cut-out for him. So get over it!

Today was boring. I didnt learn much. Just practices here and there. Frustrating. Then some measly test during history. God knows we do it for what. Sec 5s are not attending school anymore. Typical.

I played Bubble breaker in physics. Haha. Touched on bio and went home! Finally inheritance is at my finger tips.

Thats all folks. I havent bathe cos just came home from school. So now my body's itching. BYEE!

2009-10-06T06:54:00.000-07:00

I dont understand my own feelings. One moment yes and the next no. I'm confused. I'm sure you dont to.

Anyways,my table is stacked with unread notes and incomplete practice papers. Haiss. Major major exams that determine your future sucks. Thank for volunteering to clean my table. But trust me,it'll be the same in a day or two.

Till here. I'm getting headaches! But its on one spot only. Irritating. Cannot sleep properly and must keep adjusting my hair to release the tension. Ugh. Life.

2009-10-05T08:48:00.000-07:00

I was scolded in malay class by kursiah over a freaking table! It moved like 5cm only pls. Then want to shout at me! F off la! How I know you didnt like the table there?! Next time you yourself move it la dumb fuck!

Yes I'm still angry with her. She has no respect for students. And she shout like we got no ears like that. This week's MT lesson will be full of agony! I want my OWN malay teacher back. In fact,my group wants OUR malay teacher back. But unfortunately she's on mc for a week. So we will have to suffer.

I always thought she was a nice person until today when she scolded me and embarassed me in front of the class just because I didnt put the table at the back when I changed seats. The table was already there la! Berbual takde care sah!

GGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!

Anyways,finally today I studied intensively. Thanks to hakim. And I learned alot. Actually I know most of it,just need a recap. I'm an intelligent girl you know. Better agree with me hor! Hahaha.

Till here. I'm disturbing sis's study table for her laptop. Comp's lagging for dont know what reason! And I dont know how she can focus when she's watching sci-fi and chatting and studying at the same time! She's been using this 'method' since secondary school and she still can reach uni. How ah?

Thats all folks. I cannot wait to get out of loyang now.

2009-10-04T22:09:00.000-07:00

i just typed like 3 paragraphs of post and i accidentally pressed return to list of posts when im suppose to press publish!

This is what happens when you have fat fingers and trying to update your blog using cheryl's phone. Urgh!! Not that im blaming cheryl's phone la. Oh well. Thanks ah piggy whore!

Im just waiting for time to past,hence the unneeded post. Heh

2009-10-03T07:17:00.000-07:00

I have nowhere else to turn.

2009-10-02T07:52:00.000-07:00

I dont ever want to lose this feeling
I dont want to spend a moment apart
Cos you bring out the best me
Like no one else can do
Thats why I'm by your side
And thats why I love you.

Not referring to any particular person. I just love the lyrics to the song Best In Me by Blue.

:p

2009-10-02T01:14:00.000-07:00

I just felt like singing to all Blue's songs. So I did! Searched in youtube and ended up downloading the songs. I miss that boyband. Heh.

Now I'm karaoke-ing(as usual) in front of youtube. Dont laugh. I'm sure you do it too.

2009-10-01T05:38:00.000-07:00

Read this with a fiery heart then you'll understand why I'm bragging about SingTel. Heh

I'm pissed. With SingTel! They have rights over the BPL and sports channel in Singapore starting from next yr! Fcuk it! Whats the big deal? Well,if you didnt know,most SGs have a starhub set-top box. It has all the matches that football fans watch.

Now that SingTel is taking over all sports channels,now people who have the cable tv either need to get mioTv specifically for sports channels or get mioTv and let starhub cable stay. mioTv only offers sports channels. Without cable tv,you'll watch mediacorp shows only. PATHETIC!

Why must they ruin it? Why cant SingTel just use some other way to bring up profits?! Why must they disturb our football channels? If you want mioTv JUST for sports channels,then must pay for starhub cable tv and mioTv for sports channels. Which I bet you watch only when there's an interesting match or your fave club is playing.

So what if it is going to be on mioTv,internet and can download from phones? Why watch on the comp when you have a big screen tv in front of you? The tv can have like 10 people watching at the same time! Comp so small screen. Handphone worst! Dont watch even better!

Sports channels will be 24hours. So you pay even if you dont watch 24hours! Even if you dont watch for a week,STILL MUST PAY! I'm not being a cheapskate or anything. But please! Why take away something comfortable from the hearts of football fans? Its troublesome.

At least for starhub got package. But then again,no matter how much people voice out,they will eventually get mioTv. If not,go coffee shop and watch football. Singapore cannot run away from watching football.

2009-09-30T08:07:00.001-07:00

Me and ss are just not meant to be bestfriends. I love you but this r/s is aku bertepok sebelah tgn. I've failed to impress.

I was apalled. Expected. Forced to go visiting although I was so tired. Mom was throwing tantrum so I did the same thing. Notes in hand in the bus. Visited two houses only. Rushed home to meet Farid. Thanks for the shoulder.

So here I am. Okay I know my posts are all words,so this time round I shall post a picture. Actually I dont want cos if I post,then my blogger will give me problems cos I'm gonna post someone's picture. Haha. Let me try ah...

Pheww! Thank god it didnt give me problems. Hahaha! So here's birthday boy! I know its a random picture but I lazy to search for a nice one. Kim's face extra sia. HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MUHD ZIKRI BIN...I hope you had enjoyed your day today! Quick get your present from me. Me and the rest got something to share with you!(Clue:We wanna wanna be a vasantham star!)Inside joke. So quickly meet up!

Okay thats all folks!

2009-09-29T02:29:00.000-07:00

Because when you feel like something bad is about to happen,it might just happen.

To farhan,I just hope you would get over us. We have nothing anymore. I dont want to be your bestfriend anymore. I still dont get you and never will. You have abused my trust and belief in you and its hard to earn it back. I may look soft on the outside but I'm still cold on the inside. I have nothing against you and you know that. Maybe I just didnt convey the right message. But I dont know how else to simplify my message. You have been a stubborn person. And I did say that no one can replace you,but I've learn to never use that sentence again cos there's always someone much better to replace you. So I bid you goodbye. Just leave me alone like how I left you alone.

Till here. ~aku cubit tetek kau!~ LOLLLLLL

2009-09-28T01:35:00.000-07:00

F1 is over but I just need to express how disappointed I am. So Lewis Hamilton won. Really,I dont care. Button was not in the top 3,but at least Alonso is! Yippee! Button is the leading so its okay if he loses. Hah. Raikonnen? No comments.

As for F1 rocks? Total disappointment. I know I dont deserve to watch the whole concert like the people that paid for the tix. But at least show a few numbers from good artistes la! 60% of the time was on Jack Osbourne! Ridiculous! And whats with the stunts and not showing much of the drivers? Fail to direct la these people.

Anyways,like everyone else..I screwed prelims. But now I'm rushing for O's. At least I know how to manage my time now. No more sleeps in the day. Hoorah!

Okay thats all for now folks.

2009-09-25T03:08:00.000-07:00

Can someone just describe to me how much my life sucks? I hate it! Damn you! I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!

No,I'm not referring to any particular person. Just F1 fever. F it please! I want to watch F1! I want to meet Jenson Button and Kimi Raikkonen! I want to see them race! I want to see their cars! I want to see them all!

I'm really really upset right now. Navin gets to go and I dont! This is so unfair! Navin! I want to go! AAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH! This is so frustrating. All because I dont have the money! Sob sob! This is where I would like to ask why money dont ever grow on trees.

Backtracking..(If you're not into this,dont read. I know its a bore especially to girls.)
Before this,I wasnt really hyped about F1. Cos it comes to SG once a year only and fat chance I would ever get to see my favourite drivers race. Until I read the new paper today. 8 or so pages all about F1. Btw,I dont read anything else other than football in the sports section until F1.

And there it was! Jenson Button. Kimi Raikkonen. Mark Webber. Fernando Alonso. Why no Lewis Hamilton? I dont support McLaren. I only support Brawn GP and Ferrari. Redbull not so much. Then the feeling started to engulf me. Hype just came at the wrong time. I know I'll get over it,but still! Jenson Button you know! Kimi Raikkonen you know! Alonso you know!

JB was like in every single page. Kimi? I'm not sure whats with his cold shoulder. He wasnt smiling in any of the photos. Maybe cos Alonso(from renault prolly moving over to ferrari soon) is taking Kimi's place next season? And he didnt make much appearances. How disappointing. I've been looking forward to his appearances and he gave me dust.

Oh well,navin..tell JB and KR I LOVE THEM! Hopefully either Brawn or Ferrari wins!

Till here. ~told you it was a bore~

2009-09-24T00:11:00.000-07:00

I nvr thought I would pass my POA paper 1. Heh. Well honestly,I did badly. Everything was taught in class but it all just bounces back. Although I've failed badly,the results didnt affect me even the slightest bit. Just laughed my ass off the whole day.

Okay I gtg. Till here.

2009-09-23T15:26:00.000-07:00

Today marks the end of prelims. Nothing joyous about it. But shows o's are around. Damn!

Anyways,I was craving for McGriddles. Mom didnt cook so it came at the right time. Heh. Dragged kim,acha and verena for breakfast. Unfortunately,McGriddles not that nice as I expected it to be.

After spending a great deal amount of time in front comp,I'll shall end it here.

You guys know what I'm gonna do next right. Haha

Till here.
Jamie,get me Jesse McCartney's sneakers first. If not,go and die!

2009-09-23T08:21:00.000-07:00

Post 2

I cant help but blog about Singapore Idol. I decided to watch it for Faizal Isa's(SI contestant) sake. He's rather charming but his singing is such a turn-off! His malay accent is so obvious. Okay duh I know his malay but so malay-ish not nice wad! And the judges even complimented him! I should be the judge instead! HAH! Sezairi Sezali better! So,I'm officially a Sezairi fan! Not Zeek fan. But Sezairi fan!

Tmr back to normal timetable. Ugh. Back to the normal shit 5a2 have been put through for the past 9months. O's are finally freaking me out. So is it a good thing? Oh well. I screwed prelims so I should be freaking out. So if you're freaked out,lets freak out together!

Till here.

2009-09-22T04:57:00.001-07:00

Tiff with mom again over prelims. They just came at the wrong time! I want to celebrate Hari Raya and prelims just have to budge in.

I want to change skin and I really really liked it. But when I viewed Cheryl's blog,she use the skin already la!

URGH!! Now I cannot find any one that I like. How frustrating can this be.

Anyways,I'm still in Hari Raya mood. I just dont get why some people are not hyped for Hari Raya. Its like the Chinese celebrating New Year! How can you not get hyped?

Tmr last paper for prelims. I cant wait for it to end! Then gna start hardcore revision for o's. Dont say:Yeah right you're gna study. Becasue I dont judge you,so you better not judge me.

Till here.
Sometimes people js dont care about you because they feel you're not as important as their friends even when they say you're their bestfriend,right Aizat?

2009-09-20T08:02:00.000-07:00

So tiring.. I want sleep..
We visited elderly houses so no cam whoring. Maybe on Saturday when everyone's here for the open house.

Just a few photos taken. Go facebook to see.

Till here.
OH! MANCHESTER UNITED aka RED DEVILS WON AGAIN! 4-3 BABY!

2009-09-18T07:53:00.000-07:00

I dont know whether to jump for joy.

Aizat failed to make me stay awake. My naps are turning into sleeps. Whats the difference? Naps are about half an hour to 1 hour but sleeps are long naps and when you wake up,you have migraines. But this only happens in the day.

Anyways..Okay I dont know what else to say.

BYEE!

2009-09-17T00:22:00.000-07:00

It hurts! Damn cramps! I hate you! And for that I have to ditch Navin. Poor thing ah that guy. Always kena ditch by me. But he's still my friend. HAHA!

Pain unbearable since morning. Cannot focus! Complained to aizat. He made me laugh and now its more painful. GGGGGGGAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!

Nonetheless,thanks for cheering me up during my mood swing.

Complained to anesa about hisory. She agrees with me. 'Shocking'. And I miss her la seh.

And he freaking macbk pro die. Only after 4 mths! Crazy! It slipped out of her laptop cover and dropped in the bus. Slight dent. If it was me,I would strap the thing to my waist and hug it! Not enough! Put velcro on the cover and on my top. HAHA!

She cant pay $1700 for the repairs so now its dead and so is she. Heh.

Till here. ~water!!!!!!!~

2009-09-16T03:51:00.000-07:00

WHY CAN'T I?!
ITS MY FINGERNAILS GODDAMMIT!
AND ITS BETTER THAN NAIL POLISH!
CAN USE EVEN WHEN PRAYING!
GGGGGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-15T23:14:00.000-07:00

Blogger is being a good doggy once again!

Anyways..I had a weird dream once again. No its got nothing to do with indian children anymore. Full of action,drama and love. I woke up hoping it was reality. BUT NO! Navin,keep your mouth shut! Super random!

That was at 4am. I went back to sleep again. and had 3 more dreams! My imagination really running wild sia. First I had a relationship with a football player. YES! FINALLY! Then it was with a friend who shall not be named. Not from school. Third was I became a lesbian!

LIKE OMG! I hate homos! The last one made me wake up and not go back to sleep. Heh.

Okay I dont know why I'm blogging this. Just got nothing to do. LOL

Till here.~I want the football player bf pls.~

2009-09-14T22:32:00.000-07:00

I screwed it. Need I say more?

I never regretted for not studying much for that damn paper. Let me repeat,I DONT REGRET AT ALL. Whatever notes that I have were useless and its just the surface of the topic.

Whereas for the qns given..I never knew the LON had its successes. Why? Because all the damn teacher does is play videos and at the end of it,no one learns. Maybe we do. But only how the people lead their lives then. And he does this every year and our grades are still the same.

I just feel like telling that damn teacher to stop being a show-off and start teaching PROPERLY.

How I wish someone could just f the reality out of him! Yes,I HATE HIM!

2009-09-14T09:43:00.000-07:00

They created history and made people suffer. And they still are. How I know? Because we students having to study about them for exams about their manouvres and such,isnt that suffering for us too? At least the world is glad they're dead!

2009-09-14T02:30:00.000-07:00

I know I've made a mistake.
But what about you?

Maths was manageable. Careless mistake on sets qn. Tsk. I was hoping the bisector qn not to come out. I was looking at Sufiyan when he was doing the qn. Trying to cheat off him. Hah! But didnt manage to. So to hell with that qn!

Tmr is History and everyone is still blur on what to study. Whatever it is,I'm never going to study Cold War. Why? I dont understand ANYTHING!

And AGAIN,I'm breaking fast by myself. Pfft. So loner pls. But at least there's only 5 days left to fasting month. I cant wait! Hari Raya celebration wont be really exciting like previous years. The vibe just dies down every year. Oh well. As long as $ keeps rolling in,I'm up for it! HAHA

Till here.

2009-09-13T02:52:00.000-07:00

This may be lame,but I just cannot stop giggling about it.

Amanda Musso kinda sounds like Amanda BUSOK!
LMAO. PEACE GOO!!

2009-09-13T02:46:00.000-07:00

Spurs 1
Man U 3

yaaaaaayyy!! Me watching it alone still brought glory!

Who wants to celebrate with me? HAHA

Till here.

2009-09-12T06:17:00.000-07:00

I accepted bro's offer to go jogging with him at 4am. I rather jump off a building. Come on! He's a fit NS man! I'll never be able to catch up to him. Oh well. But if he leaves me behind,I'll just go home and leave him wherever he is. HAHA!

Anyways,I've watched all episodes of Ghost Adventures. Both season 1 & 2. Now,I've got nothing else to watch!! Ugh. SEASON 3! SEASON 3! SEASON 3! SEASON 3! SEASON 3! Okay I dont know why I just said that.

I miss my 5a2! Esp that pig! You know who you are. LOL

And Navin,I'm gonna make you eat your words!! We may be bestfriends,but in football,I SHOW NO MERCY! Muahahahahaha!

Oh well.

2009-09-11T01:50:00.000-07:00

Time flies so fast. Its already friday. It felt like it was just Tuesday yesterday.

I dont know what else to do with my life. It feels so empty. It feels like something bad gonna happen soon. It feels like something's missing. But I just cannot figure it out. Relationship with family have been on the rocks since fasting month started.

I dont know what more to say. Just hoping an angel would be there to catch me when I fall.

2009-09-10T04:58:00.000-07:00

3 hours of burning calories. Hardcore.

2009-09-09T08:54:00.000-07:00

FINALLY I'm going to the gym again. Its time to burn calories before I slip into my sexy baju kurung. LOL

I usually wake up after 1pm on non-school days but tmr,I have to wake up at 8am! Crazy or what! For the sake of gym,I wil do it! Go ayeesyah!

I feel like I'm talking to myself.

Till here.
~huu..the voodoo that you do.~